February 5, 2022

What can I say?

The last 8 months have been the most transformative of my life. And though I didn’t do it deliberately, disappearing from social media was a needed step in my journey and growth. However, if you’re reading this wondering, “Where have you been?!”, let me back track a little.

Let’s back track a bit…

Raw Labor Vlog | Giving Birth in Thailand

In March of 2021 I had a sweet baby boy. In case you missed it on our YouTube Channel (you can watch the video above), I had my baby in Thailand because of the state of the pandemic in early 2021. Though giving birth in Thailand had its pros (I talk about giving birth abroad in this video), the cultural values around birth left me wounded physically and emotionally. Essentially, I learned that my “emergency c-section” was actually not necessary, and instead caused by a deeply rooted belief in Thailand that natural birth is inefficient. And maybe some elements of, “you’re white and you have the money to pay for this”, too…

My Birth Story | Giving Birth in Thailand

I had a lot to work through…

After I took my baby home (his name is Apollo), I began a very long and painful recovery. Not to mention juggling my new role as a mom, wife, and content creator. I said a million times on my Instagram that I would have a baby, and nothing would change. But I was wrong. Everything changed. My life, my priorities, and my values. Come mid-May, we realized that we really want to share this stage of life with our family. We didn’t want our families to meet Apollo when he was older. So we booked impromptu tickets to the US with no return date.

Goodbye Thailand 😭

Hungry for a home-base and familiarity, we went back home with the goal of strengthening the relationship with our families. People who we hadn’t seen in two years. People who’d last seen us as a couple of backpacking kids, and were now meeting us as parents in a post-pandemic world. In a lot of ways, it was amazing to reconnect with our family and share this time together. We got to spend the holidays with our family for the first time in 3 years, and we traveled through the Mid-Atlantic states and Florida which was super fun!

With that said, it came with some serious challenges:

  • Our jobs as English teachers in China became illegal
  • After that our trip to Portugal that was booked for September was cancelled
  • Then the home-base we had in the US didn’t work out

At the end of the day, going to America was never meant to be a permanent decision, but we were hoping we would be able to bounce out of there with more frequency. When it was apparent that wasn’t going to work out, we felt unsettled and homeless. Like we had regressed in life, somehow. And frankly…

We felt stuck and lost…

So I disappeared. I couldn’t handle everything that was going on around me and sharing my life on the internet. Or worse, posting a bunch of old pictures of me super happy, when in reality, I was working through the hardest 8 months of my life. 8 months that made me realize that who I was in the early days of Chase for Adventure, just isn’t who I am today.

Who remembers this? We were babies!

When I started Chase for Adventure with Daniel, I was a brown-eyed and bushy-tailed 23 year-old that longed for something different. I quit my job and sold everything to travel the world. And I did. For 2 straight years, I lived out of a backpack seeing and doing things I never thought I’d get the chance to. It was the most adventurous, freeing, and exciting time of my life. There is no part of that that I would take back and I am grateful for every memory I made during that time.

Who I am today…

But today, I am a 27-year-old mom who longs for a place to call home. The days when I would drive two hours to see an epic waterfall, have been replaced with afternoons spent at the beach with my baby and husband. The desperate desire I had to see every country in the world has been replaced with a desire to be the best mom I can be to my little boy. The best wife I can be to my husband. And instead of driving around town trying different street food, I now live for meals around the dinner table at home with my little family.

As you can imagine, with this change in priorities I haven’t known what to tell you. Since 2018, my identity was so wrapped up in being a full-time traveler, YouTuber, and digital nomad. When I felt like I didn’t identify with that anymore, I often wondered, “who am I if not a traveler?”, “what do I do if not YouTube?”, and “is YouTube and Social Media still what I’m passionate about?” and worst of all, “will people still like the person I’m becoming?”.

What the future has in store…

In case you’re wondering, I still don’t know what the future holds. We have a few months of USA content that we created over the Fall that will be publishing over the next few weeks on YouTube. What comes after, I don’t know.

I want to create content that align with the person who I am today. Not the 23-year-old travel junkie, but the 27-year-old that wants a life that is free and true to herself. That doesn’t mean that there will never be travel content of Chase for Adventure. We still love to travel and want to show Apollo the world. It just means that it will happen at a slower pace, and you might be seeing us experiment with content until we find what feels right. I hope that you’ll stay with us on this journey.

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  • Hi Annette, Glad your all doing well. Being a mother is #1 priority and I knew you would realize that on your own time. You are a fantastic mother and Apollo is so lucky to have a mom like you! Best wishes.

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